So needless to say, if you've been following the last few posts on this blog you know we've been experiencing a high-maintenance parenting season. A lot of uncertainty, a lot of prayer, a lot of frustration and spinning of wheels. I feel the whole two steps forward, one step back thing is reversed in this situation - it seems we back peddle more than we move ahead.
But as God most usually does, right when you think you are doing everything wrong and only clouds are overhead, He reaches down and lifts you up in an unexpected way.
Isaiah has been a challenge: he's getting a kind of pre-pubescent, eye-rolling attitude toward everything I say as well as all the other uncharted waters already mentioned, and all of that combined makes me seriously feel like I am sinking. Nothing I say seems to sink in; nothing I do seems to help the situation. I'm at a loss... to a degree. But through this (as through most any trial) I crave my time in the Word and I cry out for help, a lot. But recently, I've felt more uncertain than confident.
Then there came Huston. Huston is a sweet and simple kind of guy. He is seven and often a follower of whatever the friend or brother wants to do. He's a laid back bundle of cuddly sweetness and wants to please those he's around (which can be good and bad, but that's another story). Anyway, he doesn't usually draw. He will sometimes create a picture when Avery decides to do so, but today he started drawing all his own. And he very proudly showed up at the chair in which I was working, and presented me with a picture that he thought to make for me... and here is what he drew...
It may be kinda hard to see, but it's multiple pictures of me. I'm laying down in bed, standing up, sitting at the dinner table and walking on the street (top part)... and in each picture, I have a thought bubble of a cross. I asked him what this was and he told me that he made this picture because "no matter what you do, you think about God." Now, not only was that totally sweet of him to say, but his picture blew my mind and I immediately had to read to him Deuteronomy 6:4-7:
"Hear, O Israel: The LORD our God, the LORD is one. Love the LORD you God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them upon your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up."
When I read those word to Huston and pointed to each picture he drew as I read that last verse, his eyes became like saucers. Yep, He ended up blessing both of us this morning through the simple drawing of a cute little seven year old.
So yeah, I feel like everything is going to be ok - maybe not easy, maybe not simple - but I feel like God took a moment to tell me that I'm on the right track. And boy did I need that!